8W4D 両親に伝える Broke the news to my parents

結局きのう実家に電話して妊娠していることを両親に伝えた。偏頭痛は収まらないし、頭痛薬、切迫流産、なにもかもわからなく、聞く人もいないから、母に相談するしかないと思った。赤ちゃんのスキャンも見たし行ける確率も高まった気がしたし。

I told my parents about my pregnancy yesterday. Migraine did not improve, no idea about pain killers nor threatened miscarriage. I was a bit worried about everything and I needed some professional advice from my mom. I also felt much more confident after seeing the bean like baby in my tummy and listened to the heart beat the other day.

母に初めに話したかったけど不在だったから、父に話しちゃうのもいいかなって思って一気に話した。高齢なので流産やダウン症の可能性が高いから、だめになっちゃうかもしれないよって思い切り強調もしておいた。父は素直に喜んでいたようだ。「ひろの所は子どもは作りそうもないし、おれたちは一生孫の顔は見れないのかなあ、って会話をママとよくするんだけど、もしかしたら、おまえがおれたちの夢をかなえてくれるかなあなんて、ちょうどこの前話してたところなんだよ」と言っていた。私はやはり、親の期待に答えてあげようって内心思い続けていたのかもしれない。そんなに子どもが好きかわからないけど、産まなきゃいけないって思うように親に洗脳されていたのかも。

I wanted to break the news to my mom first. But she was out at 8.00 PM as usual! It's a bit odd but I just talked to my dad about my pregnancy. I did not forget to emphasise that there are still some risks of miscarriage and Down's syndrome etc as I am not that young. Dad sounded quite excited . 'Mom and I used to talk about that we may never become grandparents. Hiro and Motoko do not seem to take interest in having children. And you were single for a long time. But just couple of weeks ago, we were are talking about the chances of you fulfilling our dream! What a coincidence!' I have probably been brain-washed by my parents secretly to fulfil their dream? It could, because I don't know myself if I really like children but I've always felt strongly that I have to give birth some time in my life.

母が折り返し電話してきたが、意外に興奮していない。ままが私とひろを妊娠した時も、計画したら一回で妊娠したらしいので、やはりできやすさは遺伝か。また、私も弟も、予定日をすぎてもお腹にいたらしいから、私の出産もクリスマスとかお正月にずれこむかもしれない。ちぇっ。早く出てきてくれれば、私の誕生日前に産めるのになんて思ったが、期待できないらしい。

My mom returned my call later but she did not sound as excited as I expected. She told me that she got pregnant with me and my brother just as planned without any delays. It confirmed that this thing is running in my family. She also said, both my brother and I stayed longer in her tummy than scheduled. Shaisen! I can not expect my baby out one month earlier than planned, just before my birthday while I am still in my 30s!!

きょうはまだ少し出血の跡みたいのがある。

I still have a bit trace of old blood.