1Y1M ママダウン Mummy is not functioning

結局今週は会社に行けなかった。３週間前から引いていた風邪をこじらせて、先週末から微熱。月曜の夜にNHS Direct に電話すると、悪化しているので翌日にGPへ行くようにと指示される。こんなに具合が悪くて、薬もくれるかわからないGPにわざわざ行く気がしない。それでも、いつも行くクリニックが緊急スロットも一杯だからと、わざわざバスでGoldsworth Parkのクリニックまで行った。待合室にいる間が最悪の極地で、顔中がだるく、鼻が止まらない。この国の医者にしては珍しく、鼻の中、喉をきちんとチェックして、体温まで測ってくれた。サイノシス（急性副鼻腔炎）ということで抗生物質をもらえた。

だいたい、過去２週間の間に、アラタの風邪のことでGPに行ったついでに、私の風邪もひどいんですと、２回も訴えているのに、４週間経っても治らないのなら別だけど、特に何もできないって言われ続けたわけだ。この国のNHSは本当にがっかりだ。予防と言う観念は全くない。発病しないと医者に診てもらえないってことなのだ。

一昨日の夜は、アラタはナーサリーから帰ってくるなり、眠そうだったので変だと思ったら、やっぱり熱を出した。水曜日の明け方、ニューロフェンで熱を下げたので、Jasonは会社を休めないし、私は自分のことでいっぱいでアラタまで面倒を見れそうもない。かわいそうだけど、ナーサリーに行ってもらった。案の定、３時過ぎにナーサリーから電話があり、「アラタが38.7度の熱を出した。」なんてかわいそうなことをしたんだろうと自己嫌悪。Calpolをあげてくれと頼み、すぐに引き取りに行くと、熱を下げるために上半身裸、オムツ一丁にされていた。

アラタは水曜日までは毎日ナーサリーに行っていたので、私は一人でゆっくりと静養できたはずだけど、少し回復したものの、今日もいまいち調子が悪い。鼻の周りが鈍痛で頭痛までする。今日、アラタが発熱したら対処できそうもなかったので、Jasonに会社を休んでもらった。実は彼も昨日からまた別の風邪をもらってきて本調子ではない。アラタは心配した熱も出ず、今日は一番元気だった。

I didn't go to work at all this week. The cold I'd had for more than 3 weeks has got worse and I've got the secondary infection. I rang NHS Direct for some advice on Monday and a nurse suggested me going to see a doctor. But I didn't feel like going because it's more possible that I can get anything from GP even if I make an effort to get there in freezing cold weather. But I desperately needed any help.... I went to the clinic in Goldsworth Park by bus, as my normal clinic nearby was fully booked. While I was in the waiting room, my conditions were the worst. Around my nose was so heavy and dull and I couldn't stop blowing my nose. The GP, surprisingly unusually, looked at my throat and nose and even took the temperature! I've got acute sinus. And I got antibiotics as a reward!

After all, I've complained about my terrible conditions to GPs twice in the last 2 weeks, when I took Arata there. But both GPs told me they can not do anything unless I have a cold for more than 4 weeks. I am really disappointed. NHS don't have sense of 'prevention'. We are only seen by a doctor and receive treatments when we develop proper disease.

The day before yesterday, Arata looked so sleepy after he came home. As worried, he developed high temperature at night. But as I was feeling terrible and I didn't think I could look after him on Wednesday, and Jason couldn't take a day off, we sent Arata to the nursery after dropping his temperature by giving some Calpol. And my fear became true. I got a phone call from the nursery at 3 o'clock saying Arata is running a high temperature at 38.7C. I hurried to collect him at nursery. When I found him, Arata was sitting wearing only a nappy! I felt so guilty.... Sorry Arata...

I didn't go to work but Arata was at nursery from Monday to Wednesday. So I could manage to have some proper rest. Yet my recovery is very slow. I still feel very uncomfortable around my nose and have a mild headache. I wasn't sure if I could look after Arata today if he'd developed some more temperature. And I asked Jason to stay home. Actually, Jason has a cold as well and in the end, Arata was ok today.