4Y9M 3Y0M 3歳になりたくない I don't want to be 3

昨日はタカラのバースディーディナーにシティベイビューホテルの回転展望レストランへ。タカラはライブバンドの演奏が始まると、ぴたっと動き回るのを止めて、見入っていた。アラタはビュッフェだとよく食べるから私以上に元を取っていた。

今日はアラタカラが行きたがっていた、トイミュージアムへ。入場料が高いし、男三人で行ってもらって、私は隣接するホテルのカフェでマレー語の復習。見終わって戻ってきたアラタカラはとっても興奮して、「ママもXX見に行くでしょ？」

さて、だらだらと今までおっぱいをしゃぶっていたタカラ。3歳の誕生日に止めるよ、もう赤ちゃんじゃないからね、止めないとプレゼントもらえないよと言って来た。やはり、疲れたり、泣いたりすると「おっぱい飲む～」と言う。もちろん今回は絶対に後戻りしないけど、タカラの言うことが面白い。「3歳になりたくなーい」とか「プレゼント全部リオ（一緒に同じ誕生日を祝ったお友達）に上げる！」とか・・・。

昼間、元気な時は藪から棒に「オリ、もうおっぱい飲まない、オリ大きくなった」と強気な発言もするのだが、これはかなりストレスになっている証拠？放っておいても大丈夫かな。それとも、このままだと将来トラウマになる？？

We went to the revolving restaurant at City Bay View hotel yesterday to have Takara's birthday dinner. Takara wasn't sitting still at table but once the live band started, he was really glued to it! As they serve buffet style food, children's favourite, Arata ate much more than usual!

Today, boys and Jason went to the Toy Museum, while I was waiting for them at the nearby hotel over coffee. (I was actually going through my notebook of Malay lessons as I am having an exam in one week.) When they came back, they were so excited. Arata kept talking about the things he saw and he even asked me to get in to have a look!

As promised, I've stopped letting Takara have my breasts since his birthday. We had been saying to him he would be no longer a baby and he wouldn't have presents if he kept doing it. He seemed to understand it. But of course, it's not that simple.

When he is tired or after crying, he wants to have my breasts. I have no intention to go backwards this time of course. He sometimes says "I don't want to be 3!" and other times he says "I will give all my birthday presents to Reo (the friend who celebrated his 3rd birthday together)."

On contrary, Takara out of blue says, "I'm not going to have mummy's breasts any more, I'm a big boy now!" He seems to be confused or stressed? Can I just leave it? Or do I have to do something otherwise he will be traumatised??